closeness

I’m longing for familial closeness. My grandmother lives an hour away, my inlaws live 45 minutes away…my dad and sisters live over the hill but they keep so busy and they just….don’t really make us a priority. 

I long for how things were when I was a child. When my grandmother lived 15 minutes away and all my family was close. Most days I feel so isolated it’s hard to be joyful about most things. Friends are nice and I have a few in the area that have a baby but I really really want family. I love being at my grandmother’s house because my uncle lives right next door and all my family works in town with the family business and I feel such a sense of safety and community there. I thought living next to my parents would be better and it would have been if my Mom had lived, but now my Dad stays so busy and I’m convinced that they’d rather be eating out and doing their own thing rather than have any family time because they rarely accept invitations over and when they do they all stay on their phones. 

I just want closeness. I want the ease of being close to family when I’m lonely…I miss that so much.